missing

i miss being in st. andrews/dundee.  i miss being in scotland.  i miss walking lade braes walk to town from dra, and seeing the cathedral ruins.  walking along the beach and seeing the mountains off in the distance.  i miss being able to go down to the pier and just sitting and reading while listening to the waves rolling in.  the green.  the space.  the blue of the sky.  the soft rain.  the sounds.  i miss it all.  i miss not having allergies.  i miss being able to get around places without  a car.  the ease of walking into town for a pint with friends, and not having to worry about driving home.  i didn't forge as strong of friendships with people like i did during my time at dundee, but there are still people i miss.  i want to be happy back here in chicago, but nothing feels right.